Often as I am writing, God will whisper in my ear and I find myself walking back my words. This is one of the reasons I discipline myself to journal. The LORD interrupts!
[Added notes and elaboration are italicized…]
Monday, February 15th, 2021 8:16a My bedroom
Jesus,
You say “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.” Matthew 7:7-8
My God, I ask that my meeting with [Gainesville developer] will provide much affirmation and clarity as to the direction I should take. I’m meeting with him at 10:30a as advised by [my great friend and mentor] and I pray that by noon today when I talk to [my commercial real estate team] I will know whether or not doing a “call for offers” is the right thing to do. If it is the direction you want me to go, I pray that any offer that is received is beyond expectations so that I can rest the anxieties I have had over the years (as I wrote that I realized that no amount of money will comfort any worry or anxiety, that indeed more money often means more problems, and only YOU can comfort these anxieties, but I’m going to leave this in my journal as my future reminder - thank you for bringing this to light while I was writing).
[Can money bring peace and calm anxiety? If you are stewarding it according to the will of God, then yes. The problem is too many people wrap their security in how much money they have in the bank and ultimately, that is a vulnerable place to be (especially considering you can’t take it with you when you die). Most people think that making more money is the solution to problems. This is FALSE.
Our peace and security should be in the hands of Jesus—complete reliance on Him. Then, allow Him to show us how to properly steward what He gives us and what is ultimately His through His word.
Why would I pray for an offer to be beyond expectations? Because at this time (as many of you already know) I was desperate to get out. Blaming COVID and the waterfall of circumstances that came with it was the easy way out. I was burnt out and drowning in business debt and wanted to wipe it away. In my mind… selling the property, paying off all of the debt, closing the business, and resetting seemed like a great plan. My definition of a “reset” was much different than God’s. Thankfully, our loving Father knows what’s best for us and didn’t let me screw it all up.]
If anything… I’d appreciate the peace in knowing that a nice return was made on the investment and that I steward the investment well. So I ask in faith for clarity today, I seek that I will know your will, I know and expect doors to be opened. I ask for an overwhelming peace in the upcoming days. Let me be perfectly tuned in to what you are telling me. Don’t let me miss anything. Be loud and clear. I’m grateful for these times, because I really do want to live according to your will, and seeking your will has brought me closer to you. I pray that this is only the start of that hunger to be closer to you. Bless today. Bless this week. Bless this family. I love you.
Collin
Today’s final thoughts
Is your security in your money or in Jesus? If your security is in Jesus, are you stewarding what is His well?
Do you have any debt?
Are you investing?
Are you giving?
God uses our times of desperation to lean on Him, build our character and make us stronger. Though I am never pleased about these moments in life when they happen, every time I look back at them, I’m in a state of gratitude. I would never change a thing. The challenge is not letting yourself become complacent and comfortable, but continuing to seek God ALL the time, even when things are GOOD.
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