Putting Dreams on Hold
My prayer journal entry from December 3, 2020
Are you willing to put your dreams on hold for Jesus?
When I read this prayer journal entry from December 2020 now, I think to myself… “Well, that didn’t work out quite like I had planned.”
And that’s quickly followed up by, “Thank you, Jesus.”
By trusting Jesus, I’m seeing that His plan continues to be better than my own and I’ve got to keep trusting His plan, even when I’m anxious and things aren’t happening the way I want them to or as quickly as I’d like them to.
As you know, by December 2020, I wanted out of the business. Badly. And as I’ve stated over and over, I’m so thankful for this unanswered prayer.
[Re-typed and elaborated for context and clarity…]
Thursday, December 3rd 2020 9:12a
Jesus-
Don’t let me get in your way. Show me the way. Show me the steps. Put things on my heart. Tell me where to go.
It’s amazing. As I was researching and preparing to list NS4L for sale, I was full of energy. Excited to jump out of bed and work toward something. Now that it is listed and I’m sitting around waiting in a “pending” state, I’m bored. I’m not excited about getting to work. I want to lay around and do nothing. I’m counting minutes until 5:30p when I can leave. [I hate to admit that I felt that way.] Totally not like me and I feel guilty. Renew my energy. Help me stay focused on the future and setting up for success. 607 building [one of the buildings on our commercial property we decided to try and sell / lease] is in your hands now. NS4L is in your hands now. Let 607 lease. Please let NS4L sell quickly. Please let me wrap this chapter up soon.
I received an email from [a personal friend] this morning about podcast sponsorship that said, “I can feel your passion for what you do and it is definitely contagious.” THIS. More of this please Jesus.
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
May I remember this and exalt you highly Jesus. May you always be first in my life. Forgive my selfish desires for wealth, impact, and may the desire always be to honor you, glorify you, and bring people to you. Let today be one more domino toward that! Thank you for the gift of life today. Thank you for my family. Give love to all the family and friends in heaven. Thank you for dying for me and for forgiving my many sins. May I be less sinful today.
Love you.
Collin
I think one of the hardest shifts to make for believers is in this mindset of “these are my plans and goals” to “Lord, what are your plans and goals for me? How can I best serve and fulfill your will for my life?”
The Bible tells us that if we delight ourselves in the Lord, he will give us the desires of our heart. The more I delight myself in the Lord, the more God unveils more blessings than I could have ever imagined. He ultimately wants us to trust that His plan is greater than our own. This has always been one of the toughest things for me, but I know I must continue to surrender it all.
Are you willing to surrender it all?
Have a blessed week!
Collin
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